Less than 8 hours ago I felt worse than I have in almost a year. Right now, at this moment I’m feeling the complete opposite.
I’m pleased with this shift and I’m crossing my fingers hoping that I’ve allowed myself to be cheered up and that I’m not just crazy bipolar, fluctuating between two extremes.
I ended up forcing myself to go to the party I was nervous about attending. It was the lesbian equivalent to a Stag and Doe. A Doe-sy Doe!
I met some really cool new people, and I wasn’t a jerk. I think I was even a bit charming.
It didn’t hurt that I had, just hours earlier, unloaded all my stress by pouring it out of my brain and into the internet and it also didn’t hurt that I had had a few bevs and hogged the mic at the party’s karaoke station.
Its just a bit after 2 AM and for the first time in months I feel like I’m going to fall asleep easily instead of tossing and turning until sunrise.
I just felt like I needed to update VTAN with some positive news after how dark and disturbing my last entry was.
The only thing about the night I regret is not taking pictures. It was a Lesbian wedding party. Good food, fun and games, amazing prizes, pretty girls AND ROCKBAND and the only picture I took was of a cookie shaped like the Millennium Falcon!